SOMETIMES WE GROW AND DON’T KNOW IT by David Wilkerson

Some believers can tell you all about their spiritual growth. And you can
clearly see the changes in their lives. They testify to you about how the Holy
Ghost has vanquished the enemy for them, and you rejoice with them in their
victory.

Yet these kinds of Christians are the exception. Most believers are totally
unaware of any spiritual progress in their lives. They pray, read the Bible and
seek the Lord with all their hearts. There's no obstruction to spiritual growth
in them.

But they can't discern any growth in themselves. I'm an example of this type of
believer. I know I walk in the righteousness of Christ, yet I never sense I'm
making progress. In fact, I occasionally get down on myself whenever I do or
say something un-Christlike. It causes me to wonder, "I've been a Christian for
years. Why don't I ever learn?"

I think the Thessalonian Christians were stunned when they heard Paul's glowing
assessment of them (see 2 Thessalonians 1:3). They probably thought, "Me,
growing exceedingly? Paul must be kidding."

Yet Paul knew that spiritual growth is a secret, hidden thing. Scripture likens
it to the unseen growth of flowers and trees: "I will be as the dew unto Israel:
he shall grow as the lily, and cast forth his roots as Lebanon. His branches
shall spread, and his beauty shall be as the olive tree, and his smell as
Lebanon" (Hosea 14:5–6).

God is telling us, "Go to the lilies! Just try to watch them grow. I'm telling
you by day's end you won't see any growth whatsoever. But know this; I water
the lily every morning with the dew I send—and it's going to grow." The same
is true of most spiritual growth. It's imperceptible to the human eye!

When some people get saved, they never seem to struggle with a besetting sin.
They testify, "The moment I came to Jesus, the Lord took that temptation out of
me. And I've been free ever since." I know many former drug addicts who've had
this experience.

But for multitudes of Christians, it's a different story. Years after their
conversion, an old corruption has broken loose in them—something they hated
and never wanted to see again. Yet no matter how hard they struggle, that one
remaining lust simply won't let go. Over time they grow discouraged. Their soul
cries out, "How long, Lord? When will this chain ever be broken?" And eventually
the devil comes to them, saying, "You'll never make it. You know there's no way
you could grow spiritually in this kind of condition."

Take heart, friend—I've got good news for you. You are growing in the midst
of your struggle! In fact, you may be growing by leaps and bounds because of
your struggle.

Rest assured—if you have the fear of God in your heart, you're going to
emerge from the storm much stronger. You see, when you're doing battle with the
enemy, you're exercising and calling forth all the graces and powers of God. And
even though you may feel weakened, those graces and powers are strengthening
you. For one, you're becoming more urgent in your praying. And, second, you're
being stripped of all pride. So, the storm is actually putting you on
"spiritual guard" in every area of your life!